Colours of My Mind

Oh I’m happy to say that I’m making a pre-Christmas resolution: To make art at least 3 hours a week. I’ve talk to Martin Golland last Friday at the art auction and this was his words of advice. I will do my best to follow it!

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I discovered her work by accident on Instagram…I’m amazed by everything she does…

Since last Monday I’ve been so happy! It’s ridiculous!

It’s funny because there was a lot of drama last weekend…

I almost fainted at work…

Long story short…I got really nervous about serving one particular costumer. I asked all the severs if they could take that extra table, but they were all too busy. I even asked my manager if he could help me (because last week we had a meeting and he said that if we are uncomfortable to serve a certain table, that he was more than happy to help) I explained quickly why I didn’t want to serve that specific table…he told me ”Just be yourself”! WTF!! Seriously? His parents were there…he wanted to go eat with them. I didn’t have trust in my manager before..well that didn’t help his case. Anyways I had to take the darn table.

The look she gave me when she saw that I was a little breakfast server…for a grown up…she was acting like a teenager.

Anyways, I got really stressed because all my table were asking for my attention at the same time and I could give my full potential to my section and specially the devil’s table. I had kids screaming, empty mugs, a birthday, 2 new tables and 2 latte bowls to make…Urgh…So I managed everything. But, when I got to 2nd table I blacked out and felt my hole body falling. I was taking the order of a young couple. The guy just grabbed my hand and kept me from falling. I was feeling light headed and I had a hard time to speak. I was freaking out. I took the order… and continued like nothing has happened.

My manager was eating…doesn’t even know to this day what happened…nobody went to get him…all the servers new…that’s how busy we were…to busy to even think straight…it’s sad..

I’ve made some research when I got home, and it was over stress. When the blood pressure dramatically changes to high pressure it cause a lack of oxygen in the brain causing the fainting.  After this I should have sat down for at least 30 minutes…no wonder I felt light headed all day!

What an adventure!

I feel happy tho! I feel inspired, art wise and life wise…

I just feel well surrounded (beside my manager haha). Like my friends are amazing recently, so is Mat…Could it be the Christmas spirit?

If yes…it should be Christmas all year long!

I took the day for myself.. Well parts of it haha… It’s crazy how happy I am!

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What I really want right now is to paint…and take some pictures….

But no…I have to go install my winter tires…

This week has been crazy busy…and it’s not about to stop…I just can’t wait for next week! I’ve been called to work 2 more days, don’t get me wrong. I really need the money for Xmas…but I have so much to figure out and organized.  Working took all my energy (cause I’m working about 35 hrs this week), plus I had so many appointment, I had to catch up on chores..It was just crazy! All I wanted was a day to myself after all the college drama.

I hate living alone now…because I’m always alone to do everything…No help at all (my boyfriend helps sometimes). I want to move badly! My apartment is nice but way too small…It’s getting cluttered. The laundry room is only open 9 to 9 (very inconvenient!) I have no closet space…everything is falling down. For example, the other day, my friend thought I had a double door cabinet (don’t ask me where she got that idea!) and tried to open one of the panel on the other side of my kitchen cabinet (it’s open concept) anyways the panel stayed in her hand…she didn’t force that much…urgh…my heating system isn’t working properly either…and when I called the landlord about it, she sent workers without a notice and they destroyed my apartment. They showed up very early walked all over the place (with there boots on) opened the vents, scratch the paint…The water system sucks too…the sinks are always clogged. I have noise notice all the time at NOON! The walls are so thin here…I actually hear my neighbour’s sneezes….URGH…I hate it here. It’s not home anymore.

I need something new…I want a change…I want to start my life!

But then…I have come to a realization…Do I really want the 9 to 5 lifestyle? Yes it would be nice to have my weekends off…but I find you can’t really do much in a week…Will I have time to paint and make art…What about when I’ll have kids (if it happens) I usually pass out at 11pm if I got up at 6am (lately anyway it wasn’t like that before…I’m going to the doctor to get checked for that. How am I going to do this…there’s not enough hour in one day…

Basically I want to grow up and live…but I’m freaking scared…

Why? I don’t know…I use to like having challenges…

I need more confidence….

My life sucks…

I was so stress out about the Timeraiser event!

Well, last Saturday night, it finally happened! I had the chance to wear my new dress. It was a fun night. It was actually bigger than I thought it would be. I’ll let the pictures speak for themselves…Oh did I mention that it was at the National Gallery?

So how it worked…people were biding volunteer hours to the organism they wanted…the bids started at 35 hours…and mine sold for 60! Not bad for a very contemporary piece! Two women were actually fighting over it!

I had a good night! I don’t know why I was so nervous…